Hmmm I have that With or Without You song by U2 in my head. Its a really pretty tune. With great electric guitar instrumentals. Hmmm — wish I could/would have gone to the opening concert in Miami. I’m such a dumbass. Anyways, last night I read through ONLY 4 cases. What a wuss. Today I plan to go faster and accomplish more like a stinkin’ workhorse. I might go to Sawatdee Thai Restaurant to pick up some grub and chitter chatter with the locals — if the mood strikes. I actually heard about a Thai/French/American restaurant called Circles. Funny thing is — I think my parents know the relatives of the owner in NY. What a small world. How funky is that? So maybe I’ll try that instead. I have a bit of a craving for some good Thai food.

(U2) – With or Without You

“See the stone set in your eyes

See the thorn twist in your side

I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate

On a bed of nails she makes me wait

And I wait without you

With or without you (2X)

Through the storm we reach the shore

You give it all but I want more

And I’m waiting for you

With or without you (2X)

I can’t live

With or without you

And you give yourself away (2X)

And you give (2X)

And you give yourself away

My hands are tied

My body bruised, she’s got me with

Nothing to win and

Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away (2X)

And you give (2X)

And you give yourself away

With or without you (2X)

I can’t live

With or without you

With or without you (2X)

I can’t live

With or without you (2X)”

I’ve been thinking about the many things I’ve missed in life: the thousands of concerts, plays, and get-togethers of friends and family. Its slightly disheartening. I mean if I recount all the times I missed such things — I realize they were usually because of lacked time or even laziness. I seriously need to take everything more seriously. I’m 24 and I haven’t traveled the world. I haven’t gone and done things I would have liked and quite frankly — its bugging the hell out of me. I wanna live damnit! That’s why I think I may go skiiing with Ine and a few other med school friends this winter break. I wasn’t really sure about it at first. And still if something else comes up — I may not go at all. But its definitely a priority on my list. Once school begins, I plan on traveling and doing internships abroad. Preferably in the UK, Japan, Australia, New Zealand, and even Thailand. When I was at Emory, I planned so much. I wanted to study abroad for a year — anywhere — as long as it was OUT of the United States. Now look at me. Nearly 2 years have passed and not a single trip abroad, well one exception to going to Thailand – but that doesn’t count much. Then after graduation — I was all set to live in Japan for a year and teach English in Tokyo — but that fell through because of my need to remain in the United States and apply to some kind of graduate program. Arrrggghhh.

I even had a traveling buddy to go with to teach in Japan from Emory. A fellow classmate who was taking a Chinese literature class with me. We both applied and interviewed at the same time. I told him he was a shoe-in to get accepted on account of his “All-American” boyish looks. Blonde hair…blue eyes…tall..the whole deal. He didn’t think so. And sure enough — he got in. Well it also helped that he was brilliant. As for myself, I wasn’t too sure at the likelihood of them selecting me. But after I mentioned my slight knowledge of the Japanese language (2 yrs in HS, and one year in college) — they were very excited. And, in the end, we both were accepted to go. But as the story goes, I had to decline — after many weeks of aggravation and pondering. *sigh*

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