Well, I had a close encounter with breaking up. Actually — I did break up with the Green Knight and for a brief hour — I thought it truly was final. I mean we have only dated for approximately 2 months. Therefore, there wasn’t much crying or boo hooing but it wasn’t happy talk either. As I prepared to sit down with my book and forget the entire conversation — the phone rings. Moi: “Hello?”

Green Knight: “Why does everything have to be so final??!! So black and white with you? Everything was going great”

Moi: “I just got the sense we were going through the motions and it was making me unhappy”

Green Knight: “I get real busy and you over react by ending things?!”

Moi: “Its not just that [name], maybe we do want different things. I don’t know”

Green Knight: “I still want to try to work things out — I want to come over and talk things through”

Moi: “I don’t think that’s a good idea — I’ll just talk to you later”

Green Knight: “Please, let me come over and let us talk things through”

Moi: *pause* “Um ok”

He came over and immediately said “so this is it? I know you don’t really want to believe that”. He went through the motions of promising to try to change a little and I felt bad. I told him that I didn’t want someone to change because they wanted to be with me — they should want to change because it was beneficial for themself. Finally, we agreed to see how things went for awhile and I promised to keep things in perspective. To not “over-analyze” things as he termed it. We shall definitely see.

The only thing right now running through my head is that Avril Lavigne song “Mobile”

“Went back home again

This sucks, gotta pack up and leave again

Say goodbye to all my friends

Can’t say when I’ll be there again

Its time now, I turn around

Turn my back on everything

Turn my back on everything

[chorus]

Everything’s changing when I turn around

I’m out of my control

I’m a mobile

Everything’s changing when I turn around

I’m out of my control

I’m a mobile

Start back at this life

Stretch myself back into the vibe

I’m waking up to say I’ve tried

Instead of waking up to another TV Guide

Its time now, I turn around

Turn and walk on this crazy ground

[chorus]

Everything’s changing when I turn around

I’m out of my control

I’m a mobile

Everything’s changing out of what I know

Everywhere I go

I’m a mobile

I’m a mobile

Hanging from the ceiling

Life’s a mobile

Spinning ’round with mixed feelings

Crazy and wild

Sometimes I wanna scream out loud

Everything’s changing everywhere I go

I’m out of my control

Everything’s changing everywhere I go

Out of what I know

La la la la la la la la la

[chorus]

Everything’s changing when I turn around

I’m out of my control

I’m a mobile

Everything’s changing out of what I know

Everywhere I go

I’m a mobile

Everywhere I go

I’m a mobile”

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