Some people you learn to know and realize they are beyond valuable – friendship wise. Others…you think you want to be friends with….you get to know them — and then something inside just turns you off. For some it is an immediate response. Others it takes awhile. I’m pissed right now for no apparent reason. Scratch that — deep down inside I know what is ticking me off and it stems from a multitude of issues.
Argh, I wish I had a human punching bag. I hate feeling this way and not being able to let out all my anger and frustrations without restrictions. THIS is the reason I’ve come so close to reaching meltdown or simply cracking. Is it so much to ask from above that shitty people leave me alone? I know life has its pitfalls but…..come on!!! Leave god damn you…..LEAVE!!!!
I feel nauseous.